Day 25: I Couldn't Believe the Words That Came Out of My Mouth
30 Days Of More
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A part of me cringed as I heard myself say:
“The truth is I don’t want to get out of bed for less than $10K”
I didn’t say it to just one of my mentors…but in front of a room of other women.
The audacity!!! This part cried. What on earth will they think about me?
Spoiler alert: they cheered me on! Find these people if you don’t have them already
But also as I said these words my body felt a huge wave of relief.
This is what was hiding underneath a huge wave of exhaustion when I was pregnant with my second child last year — the exhaustion hit a new level when I started planning to launch one more group offer before my maternity leave.
It became so clear. I wasn’t exhausted from being 33 weeks pregnant…
I was exhausted from still carrying threads of the belief that in order to be good, in order to be liked, in order to be successful I needed to make my work affordable.
I was exhausted from trying to speak to clients who weren’t ready or able to invest in themselves and their businesses in a big way.
I was exhausted from thinking about planning schedules and calls newly postpartum for less than was actually worth it for me and my family in this season.
As soon as I liberated this truth — the truth that high ticket is what turns me on — I felt so much open up for me. And even though it was 5PM on a Tuesday afternoon after a long day of biz and parenting, I felt energized!
Sure exhaustion can be a sign we need to take care of ourselves physically in a better or different way — nutritionally, movement, etc.
But exhaustion can also be our body’s way of telling us: this old way of being is TIRING! I’m so done with it. Please find another way.
I could have called that greedy. I could have felt like that was overcharging or out of touch or selfish or any of the words we have ready to dismiss our own desire.
Or I could just face the reality of what my body was actually saying — that it was guiding me toward what my next level needed to look like so I could keep being of service to my community and to my family.
I chose the second one.
There’s a difference between a wanting that’s clingy and a wanting that’s clear. And the wanting only goes clingy when we don’t let ourselves fully feel it. When we suppress it, deny it, talk ourselves out of it — that’s when it gets desperate. That’s when it starts to grasp. That’s when “wanting more” turns into a thing that doesn’t feel good in your body and doesn’t feel good to anyone around you.
But what happens when we let ourselves actually feel it? Sit with it? Let it speak?
It turns into a direction for us to move in.
It becomes the body’s way of telling you what it knows before your mind catches up.
And then the Universe can meet you there. Because there’s no longer a part of you that’s trying to push the wanting away while also trying to receive it. The wanting and the receiving are finally on the same team.
Yesterday we moved with this, tomorrow we’ll focus on integration with juicy journal prompts. And if you haven’t had a chance to do the somatic practice yet, it’s waiting for you here.
🌀 This post is part of 30 Days of More — a somatic money challenge designed to expand your capacity to hold and receive more money with less resistance. Each day includes a practice to help you turn your big feelings into fuel for big money. Free subscribers receive the daily posts and weekly money challenges, and paid subscribers get access to the somatic practices and integration journal prompts. If you’re ready to go deeper, upgrade here.